For at least a month, I have struggled with a post-long COVID brain. It is frustrating because learning how to use my website and connect with you is difficult. I finally managed a piece on Facebook about Podcasts Rock! Then I was crying because I realized it would be only seen by my readers for 24 Hours! Somehow, my brain sent me to copy it and place it in an email to as many people as I had on my email lists. I wanted to share how the Podcasts gave me so much joy.
I also want to share that I have been in excruciating pain in my shoulder and finally found my way to my doctor's office to have him order an X-ray. I'm not sure what the X-ray showed yet, but the three young people checking me in and giving me instructions to prep and have the X-ray were lovely, caring, patient, and gave me peace. The pain continued, and I will not know the results until next week. In the meantime, I came across my PT scan on the 19th of this month. I thought it revealed I had no cancer, but it says the opposite, and the cancer is where I have been having so much pain. It has been a day of tears, fears, and loss of focus.
However, my walk to the mailbox midafternoon also led me to have a chat with the groundskeeper. He is an artist with every bush or plant he tends. He was just outside my apartment, trimming a bush on the other side of my huge cedar tree. Months ago, when I asked him for prayers that the PT scan would not show cancer, he trimmed the bush into a heart shape to remind me that he and his family were praying for me. We chatted about a few other things before I came into my apartment today, and I felt easier about my challenges.
I prepared a meal, sat down at the table across the room from my computer, and was led
by my spirit helpers, I suspect, to choose the Tig Notaro Comedy special. And it was all about her journey with cancer and other challenges. By the end, I was laughing, hopeful, and encouraged to face challenges head-on, and they would lose their power over me.
In my tears earlier, I was crying for a partner, a friend who was in this challenge with me, and I had thought: Why would anyone want to be with me through all the aging and health challenges I am facing? But Tig found a friend who became her partner! And she was back
on stage with cancer and healing, giving the audience laughter and hope. She shared that she remembered that if she rose above obstacles in her path, they would "crumble in front of a steady resolve." She remembered that life is about taking risks and seeing the payoff, so you might as well take a chance.
I am grateful for Tig's dry humor and risky sharing of her health challenges. They reminded me of what my book Naked Seeds is meant to do: tell the truth, find ways to heal, and find better ways to reframe our challenges.
I have told many friends that I would choose to be a standup comic in my next life. Who knows? I think I sometimes share with dry humor, but not Tig's deadpan style! I would be pleased if you read my stories and find some humor to help you heal, as I have in my journey. If you feel so moved, leave a review of my book on Amazon!
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